Write. Stop. Hibernate. Repeat. This has been a vicious cycle for this blog. For some reason I cannot bring myself over the hill and get on smooth sailing. I have all it inside my head but putting words to motion is elusive.
In retrospect, I think along with my blogging, my life seem to be out of focus as well. Somehow I find myself all over the place, constantly moving/chasing (god knows what!), setting goals, trying hard…. Not that I’m complaining. Things are great. Steady even. Yet I seem to be missing the mark. I ask myself: what is holding me back? Why can’t I sustain the momentum?
The past couple of months have been tough. Major changes in the home-front, and the side effects of my surgery left me tired, confused, and depressed; taking its toll on my emotions and body. Messing it up–big time. I found myself struggling while maintaining some degree of normalcy. I paid quite a price for this. I missed opportunities (which to this day, I still kick myself for!) because I have been paralyzed with fear and anxiety. Somewhere between work, motherhood, and home life, I lost my enthusiasm. I just froze.
When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change
I’m getting a grip now actually. I recently discovered works of a brilliant author/philosopher Dr. Wayne Dyer. I am slowing getting back in track by taking on a new perspective. This blog, as where I am at now, is still a work in progress.
So here I am again (for the nth time!) going back to where it all started.